Saturday, October 17, 2009

The Post In Which I Freak the Heck Out

So, I guess it's been over a month since I've posted here, huh?!?
There have been some big things going on round these parts, most of which consume my every moment, leaving me without much to say, or the energy in which to say it, at the end of the day.
I'm sure that most of my regular readers are gone, but for those of you that are still with me, this post is all about me.
I need some prayers.
There. I said it.
I'm not normally one to ask for this, but I'm totally freaked about this.
About a month ago, I discovered a very swollen lymph node in my neck. I had just been sick and was just then getting over whatever the weird cold/allergy fusion type thing that seemed to be going around. I did not have a regular doctor, as it seems the only doctor that I had seen on a regular basis in the past 2 years was my ob/gyn. I suppose that's the case when you are trying to conceive, have become pregnant, and have recently delivered.
Anyway, I got an appointment in the office of Jes's doctor and had her check it out. She noticed it right off and found that there was another one swollen on the other side too, but not as bad. Then she said something to me that has haunted me since. She said, "Let's see you again in a month and if it hasn't gone down then we'll send you to a specialist. You'll probably have to have a biopsy."
Sweet heavens.
Guess what, I go back in 2 weeks and it still hasn't gone down.
Commence the hyperventilating.
I have since had a couple of near and honest to goodness panic attacks over this. My biggest issue is that I know more than the average person and my mind just goes there. I've been through every possible scenario on this and I've just about convinced myself that something is terribly wrong.
So, please pray that this thing just goes away. That's it. I don't want prayers for comfort, I just want it gone. Call me selfish, but there it is.

5 comments:

Coby and Sally said...

Yes, I will pray for this to completely go away and in the meantime for peace that surpasses all understanding!

Kelsey said...

ABSOLUTELY NOT SELFISH SHANNON!!! Definitely will send up prayer...please keep us posted as to what they decide to do. Don't let yourself go there until you have good reason to. Hugs!

Hoppe Family said...

We'll be praying for your health and peace of mind.

Mommy of Multiples said...

Oh, dear Shannon, I'm in tears for you..feeling the scare of the unknown and what may be. I'm praying that this is just a scare and nothing more..but regardless, you are in His hands. God is far bigger then any disease or sickness. Praying for you girl! HUGS!

Orlinda said...

Oh Shannon! I will be praying!! Three thoughts come to mind . . . "God has not given us a spirit of fear..."; His grace is sufficient; and "He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we can ask or imagine. Praying for a miracle!! :0)