Saturday, March 19, 2011

Seriously?!? What Is Wrong With me???

For the last 2+ years, I've been totally open about the fact that I don't ever want to be pregnant or have another baby ever again. Ever.
Then I got cancer.
That changes/changed everything. Last summer, as soon as I got my diagnosis, I immediately started wanting to have another baby. I totally thought I was out of my mind and just reacting to this major life issue and thought it would pass.
It never did.
It, in fact, has gotten much, much worse. To the point where I have had a gut wrenching, visceral reaction when friends recently announced that they were pregnant.
I have 2 kids who are pretty much in the age where they are fairly easy to go and do things with, so why in the world would I want to start over?
What in the world is wrong with me?


Hoppe Family said...

Nothing is wrong with you -- that's the way God made women. I still want another baby when I see one. Would having three children really be so terrible? Maybe your "quiver" isn't full yet. I always wanted 13, but God had other plans.

Amy said...

lol, ok don't tell anyone but I'm having the same issue. J thinks I'm crazy. We'll give it a few months and see if it passes.