Monday, January 21, 2008

Why Do I Do This??

When I was growing up, I had some serious self esteem issues, like most teenage girls. When I met Jes, I seemed to just mature and grow into a confident person who I never thought I would become. As an example of this, when I was younger, just the thought of having to speak in front of a group of more than 2 people who I knew or didn't know made me break out into a cold sweat and become a stammering idiot. And what do I do now? See what I mean.
The only hold over from the old Shannon is over analyzing what I have said or worrying about an mistakes I made. (Am I the only one who does this?) Tonight, I spoke at a cancer support group on exercise and had a great time and the talk went really well. It was such a great experience being around all the survivors, fighters, and caregivers tonight that I will go back later on this year and do another talk on physiology.
I am making a decision now to not find something to worry about.

1 comment:

Joy said...

I do the same thing. I go over and over conversation in my mind trying to figure out why I said what I said and worrry if they took it wrong and if I offended anyone. So many times at our old small group I would say something and not quite get across what I meant and then go home and just wonder why I said anything at all and thing of all the things that I should have said but couldn't think of because I was on the spot. Don't worry you are not the only one but I have decided that the other person or persons are not worrying about it so shouldn't either and if they are they would say something to me. I try and leave it up to God. Iknow I can't change it now.